Saturday, October 22, 2011
50 Q to free your mind. (46-50)
Friday, October 21, 2011
A promise.
A friend of mine posted this on her blog and it struck a cord with me. Everything written here is so true.
I cannot promise you every night of my life. I cannot promise to be beside you for every difficult moment, every trial, and every hardship. In truth, I can promise you that I will not be with you for most. I will leave you at inconvenient times. Any special date to us may be tainted with the anniversary of the death of one of my friends. I will ask you to take over whatever life we have built together for months and years at a time. And will then crash back into that life that you have used your sweat, your tears and your heartache to keep together, and try to take it back as I knew it before.
I will shut you out at times because it will be the best way for me to hold it together at that moment. I will lie to you. I will tell you I don't know things when I do. I will not always tell you where I am going, when I will be back, or who I am with. I may not call you for weeks and months and you will not be able to call me. You will ask questions that I won't answer. You will know answers to questions that you will hope you never need.
I will share things with my brothers that you will never understand. They will know things about me that you never will. They will be a support to me in some things that you cannot be. I will miss birthdays. I will miss anniversaries. I may need time to process things that seem natural to everyone else.
It will seem that someone - or something - will always take precedence over you.
I will uproot you and ask you to re-establish our family anywhere in the world, in any season, at any time - over and over again. Sand and mud will be tracked through your halls from the boots I am too tired to take off.
I will leave you when you beg me not to. I will stand at attention while you cry beside me. I will not turn my head and I will walk away. I will knowingly break your heart. And I will do it again - and again. I cannot promise you all of me. I cannot promise you much of anything.
But if you will have me, I can promise that as I march away from you, it is not without sharing your heartache. I promise you that every time I break your heart I will be breaking mine. Every time that I cannot answer you I will be protecting you. Whenever you want to call and you have no number to dial, I will be wanting to do the same. I will protect everything that we have created together with every fiber of my being while you do the same back at home. I will honor you in everything - every moment that we are apart and every moment that I am with you. I will fight harder and push further knowing that I do so for you. And I will carry you with me in everything, until my sandy boots once again sit just inside our door.
A Military Spouse's promise:
I cannot promise that I will not become frustrated when you leave me and the world seems to fall apart around me. I cannot promise that I will not curse those who sent you when the dryer breaks, and the transmission needs to be replaced, and the dog eats the couch all in the same week - most likely the week after you deploy. I cannot promise that the sand and mud that cakes my floor will not cause me to give you harsh looks and rude thoughts. I cannot promise that my heart will not be torn in twelve different ways when you march away from me. I cannot promise that I will not let my anger show when you refuse to answer questions. I cannot promise to understand why you share things with your comrades that you will not share with me. I cannot promise that there won’t be times when my heartache makes its presence known before my pride can mask it. I cannot promise that I will not show my worry and my concern when it is best for you not to see it. I cannot promise to understand why you do so many of the things you do.
I can promise that for as many tears of sadness and frustration and anger that are shed there will be double that of tears of pride. I can promise you that for every time you are away from me, I will learn to cherish the times that you are with me. In everything I will honor you and honor your sacrifice. I can promise to teach our children to do the same. I will use every moment that you are not with them to show them the amazing man that you are through my actions and my pride. I can promise that there will never be a night where you are not the subject of my final prayer and the keeper of my dreams. I promise to try to be understanding that there are many things I will never understand. I promise to keep you with me in everything and to do my best to keep grace in this life. I will be strong for you as you are strong for me and I will carry you with me in every moment until your sandy boots again sit just inside our door.
MilSpouse Fill in Friday
50 Q to free your mind. (41-45)
Thursday, October 20, 2011
50 Q to free your mind. (36-40)
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
50 Q to free your mind. (31-35)
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
50 Q to free your mind. (26-30)
Ten on Tuesday.
2. I'm going to visit Andrea. I'm so excited I could pee, but I won't because I really like this chair.
3. Andrew's 2 weeks for R&R were WAY to short.
4. My nephew is the cutest kid on the planet. He is going to bed early so the sun can go see Uncle Andrew early so that Uncle Andrew can have more day to get the bad guys and come home sooner. Seriously, how sweet is
that (if you take out the killing people part).
5. Tango is protesting the fact that Andrew is gone. She does this every time he leaves. It always makes me laugh because she protests by not pooping. Yup you read that right the dog is refusing to poop. Not my problem, less poop for me to pick up and she's never exploded before so I doubt she will this time.
6. Munchkin often yells at me to go to bed when it gets to late and I'm still up. The sad part is I listen to her. My cat has set my bed time and usually between 11 and midnight.
7. I have been knitting and crocheting like a crazy person. I have tons of stuff I'm making for friends, family, and the holidays. What I really want to be doing is finishing the socks, mittens, and sweater I'm making for me.
8. I miss my family like crazy. I think it's because Andrew left so recently. I always miss my family more right after he leaves.
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Monday, October 17, 2011
50 Q to free your mind. (21-25)
Sunday, October 16, 2011
50 Q to free your mind. (16-20)
Saturday, October 15, 2011
50 Q to free your mind. (11-15)
Friday, October 14, 2011
50 Q to free your mind. (7-10)
Ok, I know I sorta dropped off the face of the plant for a while. I promise I have an excuse! We had a hurricane, then I went home to LA, and best of all Andrew came home on R&R. More about all of that later though.
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