Deployment Blues

*WARNING*

In this post I am going to complain about deployment. Yes I realized I am blessed to talk to my husband on a regular basis and to know he is relatively safe. However, I am human and somedays I just need to put it all out there. That being said if you don't want to hear it don't read it.

Today we are approximately 80% done with this stupid year long deployment. I should be excited about this, right? Instead, however, I am cranky about it. My husband was home just a few weeks ago for R&R why did he have to go back. The deployment is practically over anyway. It's hard to readjust after R&R. You would think that R&R is a nice and relaxing, but really it's a cheap whore. I loved having Andrew home and seeing his face, but it was such a tease it's not even funny. Two weeks isn't long enough for anything except upsetting your schedule and making you have to go through the deployment readjustment stages all over again. I'm very happy for my friends who have their husbands home or are getting their husbands back soon. BUT I hate that my husband has been gone long before theirs and will be home long after theirs. It just freaking sucks. I want someone to come walk the dogs because it's cold outside, take care of me when I'm sick, make me coffee in the mornings and cuddle with me at night.

On top of my deployment blues I'm cranky that LSU is about to play the game of the century versus Alabama and this is the day my freaking satellite chooses to go out. SERIOUSLY!!! My one guilty pleasure in life is sitting on the sofa, eating crap and yelling at LSU while they play football. I just want to mope in my comfy pjs and yell at some football. UGH!