50 Q to free your mind. (26-30)

Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?

I think I would prefer to never be able to make new ones. I can't imagine a world where I can't remember meeting my husband in high school, our first date, first kiss, etc.

Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?

No. I think that in order to know the truth you should challenge it and make sure you have your facts in a row.

Has your greatest fear ever come true?

As far as I now I've never drowned.

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?

Not really and I guess not.

What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?

When I was little my grandpa used to let us smash coke cans with a sledge hammer that I'm pretty sure was just a rubber mallet, but he always called it a sledge hammer. It's special because it's just the everyday stuff my grandpa would do with us. I miss him so much some days.

Ten on Tuesday.

1. Today is Holly's baby shower. I should be getting ready, I guarantee you I am not. Good things I have understanding friends who don't care if my house is perfect.

2. I'm going to visit Andrea. I'm so excited I could pee, but I won't because I really like this chair.

3. Andrew's 2 weeks for R&R were WAY to short.

4. My nephew is the cutest kid on the planet. He is going to bed early so the sun can go see Uncle Andrew early so that Uncle Andrew can have more day to get the bad guys and come home sooner. Seriously, how sweet is

that (if you take out the killing people part).

5. Tango is protesting the fact that Andrew is gone. She does this every time he leaves. It always makes me laugh because she protests by not pooping. Yup you read that right the dog is refusing to poop. Not my problem, less poop for me to pick up and she's never exploded before so I doubt she will this time.

6. Munchkin often yells at me to go to bed when it gets to late and I'm still up. The sad part is I listen to her. My cat has set my bed time and usually between 11 and midnight.

7. I have been knitting and crocheting like a crazy person. I have tons of stuff I'm making for friends, family, and the holidays. What I really want to be doing is finishing the socks, mittens, and sweater I'm making for me.

8. I miss my family like crazy. I think it's because Andrew left so recently. I always miss my family more right after he leaves.

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50 Q to free your mind. (21-25)

Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?

Can't I be a joyful genius? I think I would be a joyful simpleton. I'd rather be happy and enjoy my family and friends then know everything and be constantly worried.

Why are you, you?

I am me because of the way I was raised, the beliefs that I have, and the decisions I have made.

Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?

Most of the time. I will say there have been occasions where I haven't been the kind of friend a person needs, but I try my best to be there for my friends when they need me.

Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?

A good friend who moves away. It's hard to keep friendships going over a distance and it's even harder to have to do the things you used to do together by yourself.

What are you most grateful for?

My friends and family.

50 Q to free your mind. (16-20)

How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?

That's simple because everyone is different.

What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?

I would love to scuba dive. It would be amazing to see all the reefs, fish, etc underwater. I will probably never learn though because I am ridiculously scared of drowning and don't know how to really swim.

Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

Definitely. There are parts of my past that I still worry on when I'm feeling down even though there's nothing I can do to change it and I'm sure I'm the only one who remembers it.

If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?

Since we're military I'll exclude my home state because I feel it's given that I would like to live there. If I could live in any state I would choose two. I would live in Colorado in the spring/summer/fall because I love it there. I have my mom's family near by and the state is just gorgeous! Then in the winters I would live in SoCal where it's warm. I don't do snow.

Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?

I try to avoid elevators because I'm claustrophobic and the idea of being stuck in one (again) scares the bejeebers out of me. Though I will say if I have to take the elevator I totally jam the button repeatedly even though I now it doesn't speed things up.

50 Q to free your mind. (11-15)

You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?

This is a difficult one to answer. I would let the people know that it was my friend they were speaking about and then excuse myself from the table. I would like to think I would also defend my friend, but I'm not sure I would be able to offend people that I admire so much. I do know that my opinion of those people would be greatly changed and I would not respect or admire them anymore.

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

Be careful what you put out into the world because it will come back to you 10 fold when you least expect it.

Would you break the law to save a loved one?

If it was absolutely necessary, yes.

Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?

Definitely. I believe it's that sometimes I can't see the forest through the trees.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people?

When I'm in a deep sleep I frown. Like a deep, hard frown. You know the kind they say will give you wrinkles.

50 Q to free your mind. (7-10)

Ok, I know I sorta dropped off the face of the plant for a while. I promise I have an excuse! We had a hurricane, then I went home to LA, and best of all Andrew came home on R&R. More about all of that later though.

Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

Right now, I'm sorta not doing anything. I feel like I'm stuck in limbo. I have this awesome degree, but I can't find a job. I want to voluteer, but I'm holding myself back. I need to step it up and do something get a job that utilizes my degree, volunteer and build some experience, SOMETHING! I need to stop second guessing myself, build some self confidence and do something to change the things I don't like instead of just complaining about them.

If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

I think I would have done somethings differently. I would have put more effort into my school work in college. I would have gotten an internship in something that would have benefitted me more than working in the psych lab did. The major things in my life though I wouldn't change. I love my husband, my family, and my friends. I wouldn't trade them for the world.

To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

I believe I have completely controlled my life and the course it has taken. I am where I am because of the choices I've made and I'm pretty happy here.

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

Doing the right thing.

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